Today is my second day of a two day cleanse. Sometimes, the first day is easier, sometimes the second day is easier. This time, the second day has been easier, until around dinner time when I became moody because I’m almost over the line but #boyfie’s dinner smelt amazing.
I didn’t give in. I stayed true to my proper servings of protein bites and I’m about to drink a herbal tea before going to bed. I’ve had a pretty epic day of shopping and that has made me tired and grumpy because it took so long to find what I wanted – being the type of person who doesn’t give up, I found what I wanted which now I am happy.
Today’s daily task was another thinking/pondering my inner self.
The Question: What do you do for you every day that you love?
I honestly couldn’t answer the question because I don’t have an answer. I cannot think of something that I do every day that is just for myself, that I love. Sure I do things that I love every day, but they aren’t specifically dedicated to me and my own happiness.
The goal by the end of this 30 days is to have something that I can look forward to every day that is just for me. Whether that is training at the gym every day or taking 5 minutes to relax with meditation, I will have something.
Sometimes it only takes one person to ask you “What do you love?” to realise that you need to be honest with yourself and say “Is what I am currently doing in life making me the happiest I could be?”… Better still, if it isn’t making you ecstatic, what can you do to get there? Those are the big questions…
Leave a comment with something you love to do every day, just for yourself.
Today brings around Day 2 of our 30 Day Challenge and I’m not in a good head space.
I’m on a deep cleanse day, day 1 of 2. This means I am ridding my body of toxins, using a method of intermittent fasting. Normally, when I do these, I am in a good head space and I’ve eaten enough food the night before to feel comfortable not eating for a couple of days. I still drink water, herbal teas and snack on milk protein bites to regulate my sugar levels, however I do not have any solid foods or other liquids for these 2 days.
Last night, I was not happy with the dinner I ate (as in I don’t think I ate enough) and it’s just snowballed from there. I’ve eaten more than the recommended amount of the milk protein bites but I’ve kept up my herbal tea and the no solid foods, which is a good thing.
That’s all I’ve had today to eat/drink so nothing else to report there.
Moving on to our daily task for the challenge. As I said yesterday, this is a mind and body challenge. Some days aren’t always going to be physical, like today. Jade wants to know what we love. What we love about our lives, our job, ourselves and what we can do to help turn negatives into positives. She also wants to know what the biggest thing is that we can control over these 30 days. So there are my answers… (with a little more detail than the post on our Facebook page).
1. What do love about yourself? This question is designed to make you think about yourself deeply. Most people looking for a change, are looking because they don’t like something about themselves. They don’t like their weight or their appearance. However, to be content with yourself and move forward positively in your life, you need to know what you DO love about yourself.
I love my competitiveness. Competition is healthy and it makes me work harder and smarter. I love my desire to want to achieve greatness. Achieve greatness how? Reach all my goals I set and then create news ones and smash those out of the park as well. I want to build my company up and become a successful business and will do everything I can to make that happen. One other part of me that I love is my strength to just keep going when things are tough. People look up to those people who are strong, loving and genuinely care about others. I would like to think one day, I can help someone stay strong and get through because I was strong for both of us.
2. What do you love about your life? This question took me a few goes to find a proper answer. I wrote an answer and then said, I’m just writing it to have something. These things don’t make you happy. It is really important to find something in life that you love in order to keep a healthy mind and soul.
I love that my small circle of friends are so supportive. I don’t have many close friends but that’s okay. The ones I do have, have my back when they need it and I have their shoulders to shed tears on, if I ever need that. It’s not about quantity, it’s about QUALITY. I didn’t write this in the group but I am also grateful for football being back in my life. It’s a strange thing to say, a piece of sporting equipment makes your life better; but it does for me. The small round ball is my freedom. When I was playing, there was nothing else that mattered for that 90 minutes out of the field. Just me, the ball and the back of the net. Now I can’t play, I’ve been given an opportunity to help out with some football clubs and I’ve taken that with both hands and will run with it for as long as I can. Football is life for me.
3. What do you love about your workplace?
I’ll be totally honest – my work is frustrating me right now. Maybe it’s a speed hump, maybe it’s not. However, going with our positive mind-set and thinking, just because I don’t like my job at the moment, doesn’t mean I can’t get something positive out of it. It is important to find that happy balance. Let’s face the facts, I spend a good 40 hours there a week. That’s a decent chunk of my life.
I don’t love my job but I love that it’s given me experience. Life experience, corporate world experience and even better for me, event planning experience. I can then use this experience to eventually move into the role that I will love and radiate happiness everywhere.
4. What can you do to change your negatives to positives?
Turning negatives into positives can be a tricky situation. Sometimes, we like to wallow in self-pity at our negatives because it takes more energy to be happy and try to find the positives. This 30 Day Challenge is about retraining our mind to see the positives in something before we even see the negatives. By the end of this challenge, positive thoughts will fill all of our minds before the negative ones do.
To help me realise the positives and have that mind shift away from negatives, I need to be able to accept the things I cannot change and move on. If I cannot control it with my mind or my physical self, then it’s not worth worrying about and getting worked up. I also need to remember and keep telling myself that success isn’t an overnight thing. It takes time and hard work. I know I am up for the work but I struggle with not having success now. In a society where we want everything now, success is something that takes it’s time. I can only do so much to control how successful I am. I can only do as much as I can do, then it becomes something I cannot control and I just need to go for the ride.
5. What’s the biggest thing you’re going to take control of over the next 30 days!!
This question is about control and that is something that I like having. I am in control of my own life, mindset and goals. Self-sabotage is my biggest weakness so that is something I am learning to control over these 30 days.
I will be taking control of my eating habits and making sure i am sticking to my meal plan. The meal plan works and if I want to get where I want to be, there is no excuses. I also need to be a little more positive in my thoughts and give myself a little credit for all the things I have achieved so far.
I’ve literally tried to write multiple posts over the last couple of weeks. I always get so excited about them but then I get distracted and never go back to them. Even when I have a moment to go back and write them, the information I wanted to write about no longer seems relevant because it’s days or maybe weeks old.
I wanted to blog about all the awesome workouts I’ve been doing, until I injured myself at last Thursday’s session. At the time, I had no idea I would be in the pain I was on the following day. I was actually feeling pretty AWESOME Thursday evening.
My PT workout wasn’t complicated but it certainly made me hella tired.
1000m row – 10 pushups
900m row – 9 pushes
…. and so on until ….
100m row – 1 pushup
then did 12 reps x 3 sets of
lat pull downs
ezy bar bicep curls
That was it. Doesn’t seem like much until I saw 5.5km row and 55 pushes. That makes it sound worse.
Anyway, I woke up on Friday and I was in a whole lot of trouble. I could hardly walk… at all. I still needed to get to work which included getting ready and driving my car. In hind sight, I should have used my crutches. That would have assisted the walking, but not the sitting down and getting back up.
After working at a standing bench for most of the morning, I took some anti-inflams which helped A LOT. I also rang my myotherapist, in which I have an appointment to see tomorrow. The pain is on the same side as my dodgy hip flexor (caused my my ACL reco we think). It was also in parts of my groin/adductor muscles. All I can think of is the pain I am going to be in tomorrow with the myo digging in around there, seeing what is going on. NO FUN! BIG HURTIES! I tell you that.
I didn’t train all weekend and I didn’t train tonight. Ever since my course finished, I hate missing Monday training. I always think the week is better if I can get to the gym on a Monday. Let’s hope everything is okay tomorrow and I can get to the gym in the afternoon. There might even be a change that I can make it to footy training tomorrow. That would be a stress release.
My sessions at the new gym are going great. I am getting more confident there and my eating has been so much better. In the last 4-6 weeks, I’ve lost 3kg and 10.5cm. I don’t have mountains to move but I am feeling better in myself. My work pants were even a little baggy in the legs today which made me do a little inside happy dance. The last time I put them on they still fitted but I was uncomfortable in them.
It would seem my writer’s block on this post has faded and that maybe I can keep writing. However, I need to sleep and you good people need to as well. Unless you are on the other side of the world, then you just go on with your day . 🙂
I have missed blogging. I don’t do it for the followers or the likes; (although I do love all the nice comments and likes I get from you guys so please don’t stop!) I do it for the relief and the relaxed feeling I get when I get everything off my chest. It is a safe place for me even though billions of people in the world wide web have access to it. I know some of my closest friends and my mum read it which I appreciate. Sometimes it’s really hard to speak about things and so much easier to write them down as you are feeling them.
I always thought I would eventually just post about one thing and recreate my blog as a single topic, whether that be photography, sports, fitness or whatever I liked. However, with the last 12 months being so hectic and me being so absent, it has sat here neglected, with no new life. I still don’t have a single topic and I am not sure I ever will. I do like just posting random things that are going on in my life but I also like the idea of having a single topic to talk about. In saying that, any blogging is good blogging.
As I have said previously, last year, 2015, was absolutely hectic. I was studying an Event Management Diploma, working a full time job and trying to fit in some kind of social and fitness life. Towards the end of the year, I stopped going out, I stopped going to the gym and I even took 2 weeks (days here and there) off from work just to get my study done. It was hard. Harder that I ever imagined it would be. At the beginning, I was acing all my assignments and my quizzes with plenty of time to spare. At the end, I was just submitting them in the middle of the night or finishing my quizzes at work because I ran out of time. Luckily (or due to no sleep and lots of study) my average for marks stayed above 90% for my entire diploma. What’s that? A distinction or High Distinction? With everything that happened last year, I am proud to say that it one hell of an achievement. It was my goal to be the best I could be and I certainly did myself proud, as well as my parents and all my friends and work colleagues that supported my through the year.
My project ended by looking exactly how I wanted it to. Everything was perfect. I did not get to proof read it as well as I would have liked but there is nothing I can do about that now. Hey, remember those jerseys I designed for my project that my teams where going to wear? Well yeah, I ended up getting them printed up. How amazing do they look? I wore one of the to my major project pitch and I know it definitely helped my presentation. My panel loved them and I felt so comfortable in them, being in my natural football environment.
I am still awaiting my final results for my major project and my pitch. They should arrive in the next week or two. In an age where everything needs to be urgent and emails ping our inboxes quicker than ever before, my college is still posting out our official results by snail mail. I cannot remember the last time that I received something in the mail that wasn’t a bill, a bank statement or junk mail. I just wish they would hurry up.
I had my graduation on the 15th December 2015, so I know I passed. YAY! I got to make a speech to the entire audience on behalf of my class. That was a little daunting but I did have one of my classmates with me so that made me feel a little less nervous. I also had the honour of winning 2 awards.
Most Engaging Major Project Pitch – Industry Standard Pitch College Award – Demonstrating Leadership, Integrity and College Spirit
I had absolutely no idea I was going to receive these and I feel very humble that my fellow students and lecturers believed in me enough to award these to me.
I’ve always said that I felt like I was missing out without a shiny piece of paper saying that I had achieved something post school era. A lot of my friends and #boyfie have degrees and I’ve always felt a little left out. Now that I have my own shiny piece of post school achievement, I feel like I belong in the world and that I have closed in the tiny hole that always sat inside me for not continuing with my study.
That means I am officially qualified to run any event.. or help out on it. I know that technically you don’t need a piece of paper to do that, but now studying and seeing this field of work, it definitely helps. Every event I go to now, without knowing, I critique everything that is there. The lighting, the sound, the food, all the way down to the decor and candles people have decided to use. It is annoying but it’s also great that I can use my knowledge to help people or remember what looks good or bad for any event that I help out on.
People have been asking me what I am going to do now… Am I going to venture out into the events world and leave my day job or stay where I am and not use the knowledge I now have? I’d like to say both. I definitely want to stay in loop and work within the industry but I also know that I have a great job and I don’t want to loose that either. I will be doing my best to juggle them both until I cannot do it any longer. Sporting events is where I want to be and it always has been. Whether I am just attending them or help running them, I will always love them. The FIFA World Cup is my dream and I will get there, one way or another. As a spectator or an official helper, I am not sure yet but it is my number one goal (apart from seeing Liverpool play at Anfield). I will get there. (Side note: If anyone knows how I can get into a gig like this, please email me or use the contact page!)
I’ve missed you guys and I’ve missed feeling like myself. Welcome back guys and welcome back normal life. It is good to be back.