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I have missed blogging.  I don’t do it for the followers or the likes; (although I do love all the nice comments and likes I get from you guys so please don’t stop!) I do it for the relief and the relaxed feeling I get when I get everything off my chest.  It is a safe place for me even though billions of people in the world wide web have access to it.  I know some of my closest friends and my mum read it which I appreciate.  Sometimes it’s really hard to speak about things and so much easier to write them down as you are feeling them.

I always thought I would eventually just post about one thing and recreate my blog as a single topic, whether that be photography, sports, fitness or whatever I liked.  However, with the last 12 months being so hectic and me being so absent, it has sat here neglected, with no new life.  I still don’t have a single topic and I am not sure I ever will. I do like just posting random things that are going on in my life but I also like the idea of having a single topic to talk about. In saying that, any blogging is good blogging.

As I have said previously, last  year, 2015, was absolutely hectic.  I was studying an Event Management Diploma, working a full time job and trying to fit in some kind of social and fitness life.  Towards the end of the year, I stopped going out, I stopped going to the gym and I even took 2 weeks (days here and there) off from work just to get my study done. It was hard.  Harder that I ever imagined it would be.  At the beginning, I was acing all my assignments and my quizzes with plenty of time to spare.  At the end, I was just submitting them in the middle of the night or finishing my quizzes at work because I ran out of time.  Luckily (or due to no sleep and lots of study) my average for marks stayed above 90% for my entire diploma. What’s that? A distinction or High Distinction? With everything that happened last year, I am proud to say that it one hell of an achievement.  It was my goal to be the best I could be and I certainly did myself proud, as well as my parents and all my friends and work colleagues that supported my through the year.

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My project ended by looking exactly how I wanted it to.  Everything was perfect.  I did not get to proof read it as well as I would have liked but there is nothing I can do about that now.  Hey, remember those jerseys I designed for my project that my teams where going to wear?  Well yeah, I ended up getting them printed up.  How amazing do they look?  I wore one of the to my major project pitch and I know it definitely helped my presentation.  My panel loved them and I felt so comfortable in them, being in my natural football environment.

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I am still awaiting my final results for my major project and my pitch.  They should arrive in the next week or two.  In an age where everything needs to be urgent and emails ping our inboxes quicker than ever before, my college is still posting out our official results by snail mail.  I cannot remember the last time that I received something in the mail that wasn’t a bill, a bank statement or junk mail.  I just wish they would hurry up.

I had my graduation on the 15th December 2015, so I know I passed. YAY! I got to make a speech to the entire audience on behalf of my class.  That was a little daunting but I did have one of my classmates with me so that made me feel a little less nervous.  I also had the honour of winning 2 awards.

Most Engaging Major Project Pitch – Industry Standard Pitch College Award – Demonstrating Leadership, Integrity and College Spirit

I had absolutely no idea I was going to receive these and I feel very humble that my fellow students and lecturers believed in me enough to award these to me.

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I’ve always said that I felt like I was missing out without a shiny piece of paper saying that I had achieved something post school era.  A lot of my friends and #boyfie have degrees and I’ve always felt a little left out.  Now that I have my own shiny piece of post school achievement, I feel like I belong in the world and that I have closed in the tiny hole that always sat inside me for not continuing with my study.

That means I am officially qualified to run any event.. or help out on it. I know that technically you don’t need a piece of paper to do that, but now studying and seeing this field of work, it definitely helps.  Every event I go to now, without knowing, I critique everything that is there.  The lighting, the sound, the food, all the way down to the decor and candles people have decided to use.  It is annoying but it’s also great that I can use my knowledge to help people or remember what looks good or bad for any event that I help out on.

People have been asking me what I am going to do now… Am I going to venture out into the events world and leave my day job or stay where I am and not use the knowledge I now have?  I’d like to say both.  I definitely want to stay in loop and work within the industry but I also know that I have a great job and I don’t want to loose that either.  I will be doing my best to juggle them both until I cannot do it any longer.  Sporting events is where I want to be and it always has been.  Whether I am just attending them or help running them, I will always love them.  The FIFA World Cup is my dream and I will get there, one way or another.  As a spectator or an official helper, I am not sure yet but it is my number one goal (apart from seeing Liverpool play at Anfield).  I will get there.  (Side note: If anyone knows how I can get into a gig like this, please email me or use the contact page!)

I’ve missed you guys and I’ve missed feeling like myself. Welcome back guys and welcome back normal life.  It is good to be back.

La Love,
C. xx

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Life is still hectic.  Hell, that’s not going to change for another 82 days.  That is when I’ll get somewhat of my life back.

I haven’t got much time to post at the moment so the spare 25 minutes that I have before I technically start work and should be eating breakfast calls for a short and sweet update on my busy schedule and life.

College… Work… Study… College… Work… Study… and so on. SORRY, forgot to add sleep.  Maybe like 5 hours a week night at the moment.

Gym?  That thing I like so very much that is almost non-existent. I’ll get there. Hopefully. Soon.

I am trying real hard to fit everything in but somewhere, something has to give.  I am not a robot; I cannot continue at this hectic pace forever.  By the time I get to the weekend, I’m falling asleep at 10.00pm.  Poor #boyfie.  I’m buggered by the time I get to his house that I don’t even stay awake long enough to see how his week has been.

I need to make a change, somewhere in this small life of mine, in order to function like a normal human being.  Maybe have time to sit on the couch and watch a movie with #boyfie without falling asleep in the first five minutes.

I also need to get rid of these niggling headaches I’ve been having for the past 6 weeks.  I thought it was stress, which has put huge strain on my neck and back.  I’ve been going to a chiropractor to help realign my body and my trainer has been giving me some pretty great massages to loosen up my muscles.  It worked for a while and they went away, but they seem to have returned.  They are definitely not as bad as they were in the beginning but I almost cannot remember what my head feels like without a headache.

How am I going to fix all of this? What is going to make me a well functioning human being who can think straight without this awful feeling lingering pain in my head?

I have a secret plan (and no, I can’t tell you because it’s a secret!) and it’s being worked on in the background. I’m not sure if it’s a new adventure, or just a different one. It’s going to be a change for the better and those involved are going to take me from being good, to being great.

There are going to be some bumpy patches but that’s all part of the adventure, right?

Need a hint?

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La Love,
C. x

The Weekend Approaches.

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THE WEEKEND IS HERE. ❤

I will be going home and making my way to the gym to smash some sort of body part.  I haven’t been to the gym properly in around a month. This is due to the stress of school and having this awful headache.  I did go last night even thought I should have been studying but I felt pretty good afterwards.  There are 123 days remaining until my college graduation and I need to shed some fat and add some tone into my body.  All this stress of school and work had caused me to dive head first off the healthy eating wagon.  I can only blame myself for that and no one else.

I can assess my goals for this year and to date, have achieved none of them.  That doesn’t mean I can’t finish the year off strong.  I still have around 140 days to be fit and strong.  I knew the year was going to be stressful with school, but I seriously underestimated the level of work.  My trainer and I are going to assess my body composition scan on Tuesday and see where I need to work on.

We received brief 4 on Wednesday. *super stressed face* I am only just working on brief 3 now.  I am going to have this whole weekend with my head in my laptop, pushing out information and creativity. Brief 3 is on design and brief 4 is on budgeting. Luckily, we don’t need factual figures for items.  We can just list line items.

I need to create some mood boards which I’ve started pinning images to Pinterest.  We also need to identify 5 key design elements for the event we are doing. With the help of my class mates, I think I have the 5 I need but as I pin things up, I will assess them again.

We viewed a Major Project on Wednesday night that is actually now coming to life.  I want that to happen to my event.  It might be a little more extravagant than this now real event but I can see this coming to life.

I am going to keep posting over the weekend to let you know where I am up to and what progress I have made.  At the very least, it will show myself how much I have done and how much I have left.

Happy Weekend Everyone.

La Love,
C. x

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Study = Stress

Overwhelmed. Daunting. Scared.

These are all the feelings running through my body at this very moment. But why, you ask? Huge expectations and risk of failure. Not brought upon me by others, only by myself.

It’s Saturday night here. I wish I was cuddled up to #boyfie on the couch and watching a movie but I’m snuggled in his bed, bawling my eyes out. I understand life is hard and no one expects you to be perfect but I want to be perfect, especially when it comes to study.

After a disappointing VCE at high school and deferring then terminating my uni course, I’ve always felt under achieved compared to my friends.

I’ve been trying to work on my Major Project since this afternoon and all I’ve added to my brief is that the venue had a medical centre and a radiology centre. I am struggling to see the vision I once saw for my event. I haven’t dared to look at the 3rd brief we received on Wednesday. I can’t deal with that added stress right now.

I want my event concept and planning to be so perfect that I put on so much unnecessary stress on myself. I think I also underestimate myself too. I’ve always been like that.

I don’t how to make myself power through what I have left so I can start on brief 3. Just look at one question at a time and move on to another if that’s too hard? Maybe use the exam theory of question answering? Whatever the theory is, I need to work it out quick smart.

I honestly don’t know if there are any regulars that read my blog or if they are just one off randoms and either are welcome. I just blog for myself because it makes me feel better. It’s my own virtual dear diary. Especially for my down and stressed moments like this.

I’ve got bootcamp tomorrow with Jade and then I’ll be back to study, hopefully with a clearer mind. Maybe throwing some weights around will help the brain.

I’ve stopped crying but I’m still stressing. I think I will be until I finish this thing. With only 16 weeks left, I’m hoping the briefs get eaiser and/or I manage my stress levels better. Otherwise, I’ll be a train wreck.

I’m just going to lay here some more in the dark with some peace and quiet and try work out my next strategy.

La love,
C.x

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