Being Competitive.


I’ve been meaning to write this post all day.  I’ve gone through it in my  head, what I’ve wanted to get across as a message but I still can’t find the right way of writing it down.. However I am just going to continue to type words and by the end of this post, maybe somewhere along the way it will make sense.

Anyone who knows me, knows I’m competitive.  Competitive by definition: “As good as or better than others of a comparable nature.” In some instances, I find this to be a good thing.  A healthy bit of competition never hurt anyone and it can push you to be a better version of yourself.  However, when that competitiveness becomes more prominent, does that become unhealthy for oneself?  In relation to my world and the way I live; and more specifically, the way I train at the gym, I only have one answer.  Yes it does.

Let me put it into perspective.  I have no problem with someone lifting heavier weights than me or running double the distance I can run.  That is great for them, sincerely.  They probably have been working much longer (or harder) at their goals than me or their goals are simply different to mine  However, when I find someone at a similar capability to myself and we are working out on the same things, I want to beat them.  I don’t think about being competitive, it literally just runs through my brain, like second nature.  I must be better, faster or lift heavier than them, otherwise I am a complete disappointment to myself.  Even while I type this, that sounds like the biggest load of bullshit and so cocky, that I even am surprised at myself. So my issue is, I try compete against others, when we can all see, my only competition should be against myself.  I don’t know where they have come from, what has inspired them to work out or why they continue to do what they’re doing.  I definitely don’t judge them or their skills, but I just want to be better.  Better than what? I don’t know their story so what do I have to compare?

These thoughts were triggered by something that came up this morning in the boot camp session I attended.  It took me longer to complete the workouts than everyone else.  Not only did I not take into account our weights are different, our strengths and weaknesses are different but our bodies are also completely different.  Just because it takes longer, doesn’t mean I’m doing something wrong. I can’t do push ups from my hands due to a wrist problem (can’t bend one wrist to 90 degrees with pressure) so I have to do everything from my knuckles.  That is just harder in itself.  With my dodgy hip flexor, I can’t squat as deep or quick and I certainly can’t do the same sit ups or core movements.

It is literally my brain playing tricks on me and I let it get to me.  It does affect my training.  I need to retrain my brain into thinking about my only real competition at the gym and in my training; myself.

Stop worrying about what others are doing and focus on what you are doing and how you can make the “today” you, into a better “tomorrow” you.

La Love,
C. xx


Dream Team Challenge – Day 10

Today was an interesting day and by interesting I mean I didn’t do a whole lot.  Normally, I am go go go but today I just relaxed and didn’t do anything…

I stayed at a friend’s house last night after the dinner so I could have a glass of bubbly or 2… (I think I had 3 max! – really, only 3, I promise Jade). That meant driving home from their house, picking up some movies on the way home (Divergent Series) and watching both 2 and 3 in one day.  That is literally all I’ve done.

I also misplaced a necklace and still cannot find it – I’m super sad about this but have looked in all the places I can think of and have been, so have come to the fact that I’ve lost it and will need to replace it (if I can…) 😦

In terms of a daily challenge,  I was too busy looking for my necklace to even think of the daily challenge.  I pulled my car apart in the dark using my phone torch, pulled my gym bag apart multiple times (because that is the last bag I remember having it in) and cried a whole lot. I  was also so annoyed at myself, that I was grumpy at #boyfie which was silly, because he was just trying to help. 😦

Back to the movie topic, the Divergent Series is based on a book trilogy by Veronica Roth (in which now I have the books; more for the collection!) It is based in post-apocalyptic dystopian Chicago, where a colony of people are divided up by their social and personality-related affiliation.  Its a sci-fy genre but I thoroughly enjoyed it, as did #boyfie.  Hopefully the books are even better than the movies!



There is always tomorrow (for a better day and to find my necklace).


Dream Team Challenge – Day 9

Image by Jade Lee Mind Body Transformations

Evening! Today brings around day 9 of this 30 day mind and body challenge.

This evening I went to dinner with Melbourne Victory at the Football Federation Victoria Gold Medal Dinner.  It’s a smaller version of what the AFL call the Brownlow Medal.  I took the day off as a long weekend, to get myself looking all pretty and things for the evening. Got my hair curled, makeup done and wore this amazing dress. I felt pretty.


Today was all about visualizing your dreams and goals again but this time as a whole and not just about your body.  Where do you want to do in life; what do you want to do; do you have  term goals that you are currently working towards?

What is my greatest dream?  This one was so easy for me, I could say it in my sleep!

I want to attend the 2022 FIFA World Cup.  Dream BIG! You never know how far you can go until you try.

So that’s the end goal.  What’s the plan?  I’m still working on it.. However, I have now completed my Event Management Diploma, I’ve been volunteering non-stop with major sporting clubs like Melbourne Victory and I just need 1 person to believe in me enough to give me a go in a different career.

This is a huge long-term goal – 6 years from now.  I have no idea what I am doing next week but hopefully, it’s something that will make this dream a little bit closer and a little more real.

#Footballisforever. As I have said many many times, football is my freedom and I will stop at nothing to get where I want to be. What are your biggest hopes, dreams and goals? Think about that.

C. xx

Dream Team Challenge – Day 8

.. and I’ve already had to play catch up…

Let’s pretend we are on Day 8..

Today our challenge was visualize what we wanted to achieve in this challenge and beyond.  If you don’t have dreams and aspirations, you will struggle to move forward in life.  It’s that simple. Everyone has dreams.  Whether it’s to have the perfect job, perfect husband or perfect abs.

Today it was all about the abs for me. The rest of my body is shaping up real nice! (Even if I do say so myself)  I want them and I know how to achieve them.  However, I currently am not committed enough in my eating to get them.  It’s as simple as that.  Abs are made in the kitchen and my kitchen ain’t making abs at the moment.

I’ve got to get my brain into some serious “game face” mode and think about food as fuel for my body and not just something for me to indulge in.  I love food as much as the next person; I’m just not nourishing my body with the right food in order to achieve my goal.  I’m working my ass off (literally!) and then I come home and destroy it by eating the wrong foods.

There aren’t no maybes, because maybes always mean no.  There is no “I’ll try” because that’s indecisive and not committed.  There is only “YES” and “I WILL”.

C. xx