Again. This time it’s 10:30pm Monday night.
Stress. Failure. Repeat.
Does it get better? Does it get easier?
My life has turned upside down since studying at college. Some days I feel great about it. Other days, like today, when I have an assignment due in a day and a half, I’m stressing myself sick trying to find time to complete it. Do I throw a sickie and stay home to try complete it or do I go to work and the gym to have that “me time” and stay up late trying to complete it? How did I even get in this situation?
Poor planning? I honestly have cut nearly all plans to fit in college life. I might see the gym 3 times a week if I’m lucky and I’m working 7:30am until 5:00pm every day. College nights are 2 days a week. That’s 5 nights I could be studying. If I gave up literally all human interaction, maybe.
I feel like I’m the only one stressing. Maybe it’s myself and all the pressure I put on my own shoulders but everyone else seems to be tackling things fine. I just feel like I’m in struggle street. It’s only Monday and I want it to be Saturday already.
Failure isn’t an option for me. Perfection is. Stress needs to go and calm needs to venture on in. The storm can wait.