Reality Check

It’s funny looking back at posts you typed 18 months ago and seeing what your life was like then, what issues you had and your attitude. towards yourself.  

 My life 18 months ago? I was training every day for a 10% buffer on every footballer I came across. Today, I’m lying in bed in my dressing gown, 5.5 months down the road from a knee reconstruction with no motivation what-so-ever. 

However, reading all these posts is making me wonder what my reasoning is for not being motivated.  My knee is fine to run; I just need to take it easy and build up my distances and times again.  Am I scared of hurting myself again? Absolutely.  It is now my top fear – along with spiders. One small click or a little pain and I am almost throwing my money at the physiotherapist to tell me nothing is wrong.  

I have all the equipment I need.  Myself.  That’s it.  It’s all in my head.  I know I can succeed,  I already have.  I’m just a few steps back on where I was 18 months ago.  I know I can do it.  The proof is in this blog.  Go back and read it.  

I need to stop making excuses and start acting.  Just like I need to keep blogging and telling you my highs/lows/up/downs because looking back, that’s one HUGE reason I was motivated.  

Who knows, maybe one person still tunes in, maybe you all do, but the only person that should take notice of these posts is me.  I should need to turn my words into actions. 

There isn’t anything more simpler.  Get off my arse, Stop complaining I’ve gone up in weight and work on it.  There isn’t a cure.  It’s just hard work. 

Swallow the pain and push through. 

C. x