It’s morning, everyone! Today’s the day! The sun is shining, the tank is clean, and we are gonna get out of… this hole we have been dwelling in. Shall we?
It’s been a while since I updated you guys on the things in my life that were making me down and unhappy. I’ve been so consumed in photo challenges, Black Milk noming and football that I’ve probably neglected thinking about the subject really. I guess the basic question I need to ask myself right at this very moment is, “Am I happy?”
Simple answer is yes. Does anyone remember the reasons on why I was feeling down? It has been so long since I discussed them with you, that it is difficult for me to even remember them. Let’s rewind shall we? *stalks back through old posts*
Ah yes, the big one… A pulverised heart. I wrote several posts talking about *x* and I and how our relationship was about as rigid as jelly. It definitely went from one extremity to another. An update? Well, we still talk every few days but their job is demanding and my schedule now is hectic so catching up can be difficult. I still like to check in and make sure they are safe and everything is well and they do the same for me. Not really any different to last time EXCEPT my feelings have diminished a lot. Do I still have feelings? Yes; but they aren’t in the same league. I still care but that is about as far as it goes. It’s like we are almost back to where we began. I tell them about my fitness (when they ask) and they encourage me to keep pushing myself. We haven’t forgotten what happened between us but we have put it in the past and moved forward like adults and tried to better things. I think it has worked.
Another small happiness has snuck up into my life. It came out of nowhere, as most surprises do. I don’t want to get too excited. I just want to ride this new shiny train and see where it takes me. #cuteboy, that’s all I’m saying.
I posted a few days ago about a new adventure. I joined a new football team. This has not only improved my mood ten fold but I have pretty much found my love for the game again! *happy dance* I have football tonight actually, as it is Wednesday. It is a practice match against an old rival we played against while I was at the Rangers, Brunswick Zebras. It might be my time to show the head coach that I am indeed good enough for his senior squad. I shall try to remember to relax and that basics are best.
I don’t believe you could fully CONQUER life itself, but with each time you conquer something small within it, you can come damn close.
Stay happy and keep smiling,
P.s. An mini update on the job front. Not much has changed and but it’s been pretty constant the last few months or so. I’m learning to let go of things here that are not in my control and I am trying to ignore those little things that seem to frustrate me enormously. (which sometimes proves more difficult, but I’m getting there. :))