Do you remember back when you first started a new job, a new hobby or even your first fitness regime? Was one of your very first thoughts “I am never going to be able to learn all this stuff, I’ll never be good at this or I quit.”
I most certainly do. I used to think I wasn’t a bad runner but I could never run for more than a few minutes without getting tired. I thought I would always be the same. I was just supposed to run for short distances and that would be it.
I remember tearing my lateral collateral ligament in my right knee and thinking I may never be able to run again, let alone play football, if I don’t look after my knee and give it the right treatment. I sat sidelined for 8 months doing recovery physiotherapy just to strengthen my knee enough to start jogging for 5-10 minutes at a time. By that stage, I couldn’t jog 400 metres without getting tired, I was so unfit. (It also meant a fair few months not wearing heels! :O) I started training with my team again and I was so worried about not getting hurt again that it affected my game, personally, as in I wasn’t giving 100% to the team. My coach encouraged me to trust my body and that 8 months of physiotherapy would have made it strong enough to withstand the pressure again. From that moment, I tried not to look into the past but to enjoy the present and look forward to the future. My team trained hard and I trained harder. I had something to prove. I was just as good then as I was before my injury, maybe even better now I was in the right mindset.
How about my job for instance? 4.5 years ago I started here. We have over 200 products and I need to remember most of them and what they are made up of so when a customer rings, I can at least clarify whether they are a real lead or just a time waster. I did think, I will never know all of these. Slowly but surely, I have learnt them, it may have taken me 4 or so years but I got there.
An old saying goes “You start your life at the end of your comfort zone”. You will never know how great your are until you put yourself in a situation where you have only 2 options. Success or failure. If you succeed, you now know you are greater than you once thought. If you fail, there should not be sadness, but a hunger to achieve what you rightfully think you can do which in turn will bring about success. Life should not be about how many failures we have but how many failures we learn from and turn into successes.
Last night, I went for my evening run. Nothing unusual there. However, I was completely unmotivated and I just could not be bothered. I crammed my brain with thoughts like ‘You will feel better afterwards.” Did I? Honestly, Yes. I ran quicker again last night that I have before. *GRIN* Another PB in my want for a quicker speed. I may not have run for as long as I normally do, (it was only for 20 minutes) but I increased the speed of my treadmill to intervals between 10Kmh to 12kmh because I need to push myself to be better. Did I feel like giving up and slowing down at some points. Absolutely. Did I feel like I was going to be sick with 3 minutes to go. Unfortunately yes, but I kept on going thinking I will overcome this.
My 20 minutes of running saw a pattern like this.
1 minute – 10km
1 minute – 11km
1 minute -12km
1 minute – 11km
It was obviously the quickest 3.7km I have run to date. *YAY* Surprisingly, I am recovering quicker than before, probably because my body is getting used to run harder and longer.
I remember telling myself I’m tired and I can’t run further but I gave it a go. I either succeeded or I didn’t. It wasn’t a life or death situation but a chance to prove to myself that I am better than I believe. If you has asked my back in 2010 when I was walking around on crutches if I thought it was possible in 2 years I’d be running 5-6km, I would have laughed in your face and told you “You’re dreaming”. It’s amazing what the body can do when you set your mind to it. Don’t give up. Remember back to when you said “I can’t” and replace it with “Watch me”.
Tonight is a rest night for me. I am flying to Sydney to see a client with my boss. I am going to hopefully get some pics and post about it tonight/tomorrow, depending on how many Vodka/OJ’s I’ve had.
(P.s. Next time I complain about my job, remind me of this trip yeah? It’s not that bad after all huh? ;))